it has begun to realize that it was never meant for a normal gay relationship with a man. it is a faggot meant to serve MEN and their desires as a rape object having its holes used and bred as often as a man wants, with whoever or possibly whatever the man wants. it is meant for a life as a toilet fag having its belly filled with Master's shit and piss, as well as the shit of other men and slaves if the Master desires. it is looking for a Master who will brand the identity of toilet deep in the fag's mind so it will never forget its place at the very bottom of the hierarchy.